Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Wednesday, 9 June 2021

New Beginnings

 It has recently occurred to me (although occurred is too passive a word for any of the realisations this year has brought)that theme and consistency just aren’t quite working for me. 

Not at the moment anyway. 

Certainly, I’ve stuck to things in the past, stuck like glue. But all I can really stick to now is the actual act of doing whatever it is that I’m doing. What I read will not always be in my usual genres, what I write might not be what I used to write, what I paint might be different to what I would have painted a few years ago. 

In short, I’ve changed. 

In truth, we all have. 

The selves we used to know intimately, completely have slipped away to make way for new selves. 2019 feel like another era, not just another year. It’s possible that as the oft quoted line from “The Go-Between” almost says “The past is another country” and one we can’t go back to. 

So, time to start over. 

Where do I begin? 

I suppose, with the things that go on. Do I still love art and history and literature? Yes, yes, yes to all of those! Am I a social butterfly? No. I wasn’t before and I’m even less so now. My social anxiety has social anxiety at the moment and I have no idea how long that will take to rebuild, but there you go. 

 Do I still like vintage clothes? Yes, in a new floaty, I don’t want anything to pinch or nip after a year of wearing indoor dresses. Yes, in a pass me all the soft, pretty, pastel colours I hardly ever wore before because right now I want to feel like a meadow, or a drifting stream.

 Do I still write? Yes, but differently. I mean, I’ve even been experimenting with the first person narrator (unreliable ones too) which I used to hate and now… No idea why that changed. Maybe, I’m just enjoying escaping into other peoples minds for a little while? Whatever it is, I’ll roll with it, that and occasionally using that most horrific of things to my uni creative writing tutor: the present tense. I can’t describe how much he hated present tense. I can’t describe how much I no longer care! 

Am I still creating art? 

OH YES! Though it’s gotten both cuter and, err, spookier recently. There will be festive ghostie images appearing later in the year if that floats your boat or the boat of anyone you know, love, or count as a frenemie. 

And now we come to that last big question. It’s probably the most relevant question in terms of this blog too. 

Am I still wearing perfume? 

Well… 

Ahhh… 

Yes… 

Sort of. In short it’s lots of roses. I’m loving rose perfumes all day, all year round. 

I’m dipped in Elizabethan rose from Penhaligons, drenched in Ralph Lauren’s Romance, dabbing on Yardley’s English rose (it’s actually pretty delightful for a scent so ubiquitous so do try it out). I’m here for all the roses, and I’m being completely comforted by them. 

Will I change from roses? 

Eventually, just not yet. So, if I talk about perfumes, they are going to be rose perfumes and that’s just one of those inescapable facts. 

So, there it is, the start of the start, what’s written on the other side of that new leaf.I hope, whoever you are now you find happiness and joy. I’m certainly questing after those particular questing beasts on a daily basis!

Tuesday, 24 July 2018

Bird Bones (a short story).

                                                                                                               ©Holly Cox 2018
 The sound of birdsong woke her in the cool half light of morning. She knew if she stretched her arm out beyond the limits of the blankets she would feel the chill and the little rush of possibilities that a new morning might bring.

For a few delicious minutes she was young again, in the country, and beyond her window the whole world waited for her. Then the dull ache in her joints came back to remind her and she recalled that the birdsong now came not from the warm living bodies of birds but from the clock radio on her bedside table.

‘Oh,’ she said, out loud. Then, hearing how the word hung so alone in the air, she said again, ‘oh.’

Minutes passed, the spell broken she rolled over and tuned away from the station of birdsong; squared her shoulders at the grown up responsibility to listen, each and every day, to the world’s misfortunes.

She studied the wallpapers pattern as she listened and weighed up all the different options she had considered for its replacement. She had seen a pleasant floral in town the other day and her friend, Elisa, had suggested a light stripe like a seaside chalet so that, with a few prints and some shells lined up upon the mantelpiece, she might always have summer in her house. Elise even claimed to know where she might get a stuffed seagull, a real one, to affix to the ceiling.

‘No,’ she said quickly, ‘too macabre.’ The floral would be better.

She stayed in bed until the news had exhausted all calamities and the weather man had confidently predicted many smaller inconveniences. Finally she pushed herself up over the edge of the bed; her feet patting about for the soft edges of her slippers whilst she felt on the table for her glasses.

                                                                           ***

The cars passing in the street and the kettle boiling on its stand set her teacups rattling on the shelf. So frail in their rattling that she feared they would spring and shake to slivers. Hurrying to catch her favourite with its pattern of Chinese songbirds; she tried to hum as she filled the cup with tea but the tune seemed to perish on her lips.

Seated at the little table with her tea she found her gaze drawn to her hand, pale, thin fingers clawed around the handle of her teacup. She saw and she could not help but be reminded of the bird’s skulls her brother kept lined up on his bedroom shelf.

“Tha’s a sparrow, tha’s a little kind of lapwing and tha’ big one, tha’s a crow.” He admired them for their lightness, for the way the sunlight filtered through them when you held them up. He had told her it was the lightness that allowed them to soar up into the sky and be utterly free.

She recalled too how his adored collection used to make her school friends shudder and he, in turn, thrilled with a boys delight at their horror. “T’is what we all come to in the end,” he said and laughed.

He had been right in the end. For was she not now dry and fragile as bird bones? She might be perfectly pleased with the transformation too if only she truly could lift up and fly away.

Friday, 22 June 2018

The turn of the year...

Well, midsummer has flown by, as ephemeral as a moth flitting through moonlight. Now, begins the long, languid sink into lengthening nights and shorter days. It's a loss and, at the same time, a moment of joy for the solstice holds open a door to the seasons yet to come. Autumn lies on the other side of that door, which I like to imagine resembles the moss cloaked, ivy wreathed door leading to Francis Hodgson Burnett's The Secret Garden, and winter too. There are falling leaves there and bonfires, hot tea and the possibility of snow. Berries hang, dark and red on the other side of that door, crows caw and wheel over stubble speckled fields and far off, in the distance, the faint fairy lights of a Christmas tree beckon.
For now, however, luxuriate in the honeyed sun of long days, the flowers blooming. Take inspiration from the summer months, store up the days as one stores up summer berries and locks their sun soaked secrets in jars of jam.
I know I will be letting the summer inspire me, and after the summer, the autumn will inspire me and after the autumn, the winter... And so it goes, on and on, a beautiful seasonal dance.

©H.Cox 2018
A page of Apple folklore from my folklore grimoire,

Thursday, 24 May 2018

Apologies for my long absence...

Apologies for my long absence from the blogosphere. Alas, life has been rather hectic recently and inspiration has eluded me, buried beneath a deluge of real life problems to be dealt with. Sadly, this post will, by necessity, be short since there are still things which need doing this Bank Holiday weekend. Hopefully, I will be back to longer posts next week.
 However, whilst I have been absent, I have not been idle. In April I managed to complete Camp NaNoWriMo and return to the pleasure of writing poetry, I've been reading some wonderful books (everything from Michel de Montaigne to Angela Carter) and this week I even found time to make myself a Summer dress (see pictures below).
© H.Cox 2018


© H.Cox 2018
For now, I shall leave you with a blog recommendation for those who love reading, writing and historical fiction: 
The History Girls Blog

So many wonderful articles on this blog, so if you've never stumbled across it before, do.

And, as for perfume recommendations: try Imaginary Authors delicious perfume Violet Disguise.
It's the most delightful woody, earthy violet perfume, ideal for midsummer nights. 

Tuesday, 23 January 2018

Pen to Paper...

Today is National Handwriting Day, although in these times of social media it's more international handwriting day. Handwriting really is something that I'm passionate about because I do it every single day. Let me explain...
Anyone who has met me or followed me on social media for any length of time will know that I am a serious notebook addict. I currently have slightly over 100 full notebooks and 35 notebooks waiting to be filled (and I will buy more, I know I will).

           With a notebook collection like that it makes sense to write by hand. I also love the sensation of writing by hand. I love the way ink flows over paper, the curves of letters, the flow of ones thoughts. I find it particularly pleasurable when writing fiction because I can completely immerse myself in the world I am creating. My notebooks contain first drafts and research and character profiles; they are a complete and tangible history of my interests and inspiration. I love seeing them sitting together on a shelf and I love opening an old notebook and finding some forgotten treasure.
          I recently took down one of my beautiful Paperblanks silver filigree notebooks and found notes on Louis XIV's love of ballet, of 17th Century fairy folklore and snippets from a love story I had titled, "May I be your Cello" (yes, that is as naughty as it sounds).
        It was a wonderful moment, a beautiful moment; seeing the person that I had been and that I was. I still have many of the same obsessions (I am certainly still fascinated by Louis XIV) but I have developed new obsessions too and my writing style has changed and evolved over the years.
I wonder what I will think in a couple of years time when I open the notebooks I am keeping now?


In fact if there is one downside to writing everything by hand it is this: eventually, everything must be typed up. 
   

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

November, perfume and writing inspiration...

So, November has arrived and we are tiptoeing closer and closer to the chill of winter. November 1st is also the start of something else, the epic writing challenge which is NaNoWriMo. This year will be my third year attempting NaNoWriMo which, to clarify is the attempt to write a first draft of 50,000 words between November 1st and 30th. It's a breathtaking and thrilling thing to do (as is the necessary editing to make those 50,000 words readable after November).

Certainly, during this month it is utterly necessary to keep up one store of inspiration and enthusiasm. I know many writers like to keep themselves motivated with a suitable playlist of writing music. However, I am rarely inclined to write to music (if the music is integral to the story I wish to tell that is a different matter, whilst writing an opera inspired story I had the beautiful La Traviata playing on a loop). For me, it is perfume which provides much of my inspiration.
More than that, without giving too much away I will say that the title of my NaNo novel and many of the character and place names within take direct inspiration from perfumery. Notes have become names and perfumes have become destinations.

It's a method which suits the story I wish to tell very well on this occasion. The settings, market places and palaces, are rich in scents and smells. The characters I am writing about would never dream of taking a bath without dropping in a little perfume or sitting down to eat a meal without ensuring that it has been lightly seasoned and spiced with rare and luxurious new flavours. In short, I am attempting to create an opulent atmosphere. Though, I am afraid that I am guilty of rather opulent writing on all occasions, perhaps, even verging upon the dreaded purple prose).



So, in aide of inspiration, today I am drenched (lightly) in Ambre Imperial from Van Cleef and Arpels, a peppery sweet amber scent with a smoky edge. It's a perfume as exotic and romantic as the atmosphere I am currently trying to write. Heart notes of vanilla conjure rich  plates of dessert, woody notes in the base suggest a winter fire roaring whilst the snow falls outside, the fleeting fresh scent of bergamot in the top notes brings to life a splendid, sun draped summers day when, perhaps, words of love will be whispered between main characters.
     It's the perfect perfume for today's writing; and, tomorrow, another perfume will take it's place as inspiration. For now, however, I must return to my writing...

Friday, 2 December 2016

The Sleeper Part 2

Chapter One
Beneath blue silk awnings a menagerie whirrs into life. Velvet coated leopards pad behind screens of un-wilting silver trees and do not disturb in the least the enamelled, jewel eyed peacocks who fan their feathers and dance around each other. Still the band plays on their sightless polished eyes staring at their music sheets, their instruments plucked and pressed in precise movements intended to bring nothing more than the appropriate climax. Merciless, no sooner have they finished than they return to the beginning. These are the achievements of an age of clockwork and steam (see how realistic the leopard’s moist breath is). They will certainly be a highlight of the ice fair. Every year, Montenoix holds its ice fair because every year the river through the capital and the little lake which adjoins the river freeze solid. Perhaps one day the river will fail to freeze but this seems unlikely. The Weather here obeys its own laws. No one can remember the first fair but the history books speak of a brave and enterprising pie maker who crept out onto the ice one morning and set out his stall. Nervously, slipping in their clogs, his customers came and continued to come. They were emboldened by pie and, to a far greater extent, by a barrel of good strong ale dragged out by the local bar keeper. They began to craft makeshift sleds and skates, lit braziers and talked in the dark blue hours of twilight about how they would do this again next year if the waters froze. Unfortunately, although history clings to this charming story the names have been forgotten. They vanish out of sight like pennies slipping through cracks in the ice never to be seen again. Such is the way with the lives of peasants. Someone should write a book about this. No matter, we are with Camille now and Camille’s principal concern is whether or not her clockwork menagerie will sell. There are certainly many boastful dandies who might believe such lifelike creature to be the perfect garnish to a banquet or a ball. The question is: can they be persuaded to part with real gold to make their vision a reality?
The only person she knows for certain will visit her pavilion is her brother Jon. She also knows for certain that he has not got any money. He is after all but a humble librarian. Albeit, a librarian to a noble family. Sadly, by his account not one likely to be swayed by such outré art as she has produced.

‘No one will know,’ Jon says as he helps Louis down from the cab they rented. ‘We will see my sister’s clockwork and then we shall vanish into the crowds.’
‘Yes.’ Louis said. How he longs already to vanish. How he longs for the strangest things. He longs to run away, with Jon, into the woods and grow a pelt like a fox. Freed from all convention they can sleep out the winter in a deep den underground. But he takes Jon’s arm, holds it tight as they wind their way to Camille’s pavilion. He is dazzled as they step in. Against his will, for he would rather have had an excuse to slip away, he stands entranced by a cage of flapping calling exotic birds as Jon goes to make his greetings to his sister. It seems inappropriate now for Louis to introduce himself. How would he describe their relationship to her? He should think of some clever and cunning pseudonym, the kind a romantic heroine might have, something long and elegant. He toys with the idea of sweeping in clad in a flowing black cape and silken mask. He would sweep off the mask as he takes his hostess (or indeed his hosts) hand. Showering kisses upon the fingers as he introduces himself as La Comte Mystere. The brush of a Leopard against his leg and the brief shock of such intimacy with a predator bring him back to his senses. He really must go to the theatre less often it is utterly clouding his senses but there are times when he would rather live in a world of dreams. The pavilion is filling up now. Little crowds of people knot around the birdcages; women in feather plumage which seems somehow less magnificent than its imitation and men in fur collared coats which merge with the moving animals. There is a general clamour of excitement as children dare each other to pet the big cats. Little hands fly out, little cries of delight are heard then the hands plunge back into the safety of gloves and pockets.
The sound of trumpets cuts through the air. People jump back and Louis feels Jon’s hand in his again gently tugging him back into the shadows. A leather clad finger presses to his lips and demands his silence. 
Here comes the Princess Amandine stepping down from her carriage in a fanfare of trumpets and a cloud of heady oriental perfume. Her long velvet train ripples over the ice. The colour is bright, vivid blue as dazzling as a sapphire, seeming to twinkle with as many facets. She looks as if she has been carved out of the ice. Her guards follow after her, hands poised on their glittering swords, heels clicked together. They are toy soldiers but not quite so uniform. Look a little more closely and one might see how the captain inclines more towards his Princess, how his eyes pass over her as if contemplating something truly remarkable. Look more closely at the Princess herself and one would see how little she sleeps. Her eyes are tired; her skin glistens a little less beneath them. She tries to hide this. She is here to do her duty for it is her job to open this fair officially as she does every year. One swift snick of the scissors a few words upon the beauty of the season (how closely this land is allied with winter) and how wonderful the invention of these stalls will be. Now she moves amongst them her duty done but her curiosity not yet satisfied. It would be inaccurate to say that she is only human but she is by no means immune to boredom. So she visits each pavilion in turn. She lingers when she reaches Camille’s fantastical animals. She pauses to examine, at a proximity which would make a mortal nervous, the musicians. She looks at their fingers upon the keys of their pianos, she looks at their lips upon the lips of flutes, she examines their mother of pearl fingernails and their polished glass eyes, and she touches their hair made from delicate strands of silk, finer and glossier than any head of human hair.
Their chests seem to her to move as if they conceal hearts and surely their velvet upholstered lips are made for kissing? What is a human being? Not just the tangle one sees on a surgeons table surely. Can a thing be made to be human? She has never thought of this before.  Now it seems quite possible to Amandine that she has missed something rather obvious. If fate will not bring her brother’s true love to her door then why should she not build him or her within the hall? A suitor already there, perfectly tailored to suit the specifications of her brother’s heart. Ah, but how to know those? No matter, she will cross that bridge when she comes to it.
              
‘Madam, would you come with me?’ Camille looks up from the snake she is winding and sees a Guardsman standing over her. He has thick sideburns which border upon the English fashion for mutton chops and steel coloured eyes. His tall hard hat is tucked under his arm. She lets the snake go and it writhes from her hands onto the floor, vanishing off amongst the fair goers skirts. He will give someone a shock like that.
‘Why?’ Camille has never done what she is asked to do without first asking her own questions.
‘The Princess,’ here the Guard pauses to inhale deeply and clicks his heels together loudly, ‘would like to speak with you.’
‘What about?’ Camille asks. The guard looks utterly horrified at this. He plucks at the plume on his helmet.
‘That is not for me to know.’
‘Very well then, so who are you? I suppose that is a question you can answer?’
‘Certainly,’ he says, ‘I am Captain Albert San Valentine.’
‘What an elaborate name.’
‘It was my father’s name and his fathers and his father’s before him.’ The Captain says with a glimmer of pride.
‘And I take it that if you have a son you will also call him Albert san Valentine?’ Camille says as she puts on her coat and adjusts her fur hat on top of her elaborate coiffure.
‘I have not thought of the day I have a son.’ The Captain sighs. ‘However, were I to have a son I think it is high time that we added a new name to the family tree. It is becoming rather hard to read.’   
   
The captain of the Guard in his stiff uniform twined and buttoned with gold leads her across the ice. He offers her his arm from time to time in a stiff show of chivalry. They are heading towards a vast carriage the colour of summer violets. The coat of arms painted beneath the silk curtained window tells Camille at once whose carriage this is. A shiver runs up her back. The lives of Clockmakers and Princesses usually do not cross. Has she offended her sovereign with her wind up menagerie? The guard knocks on the window, a little too softly at first and then with flushed cheeks he knocks a little harder. The window is lowered and from the depths of the carriage the Princess leans forward. She rests her gloved hand on the sill. She smiles very briefly before the smile is dashed from her face by a strange twist of regret. Papers spill from the Princess’s lap down into the body off the carriage like autumn leaves from a tree.
‘You are the clockmaker who made the peacocks and the violinist?’ The Princess asks. ‘They tell me you are but I would have you say it yourself.’
‘Yes, I am the clockmaker.’ Camille says.
‘And do you believe that you can fashion anything out of clockwork?’
‘Most things, yes, your highness, I believe that I can.’
‘How real might they be?’ the Princess asked. ‘I saw that your automata seemed to breathe. They seemed to smile at times but still their eyes were silent. Could you make them more alive than they are now?’
‘With time.’ Camille said. She had considered the problem of thought before. She had created things which seemed to think but she had destroyed them all.
 ‘Time.’ The Princess sighed. ‘Well, I have waited long enough what is another dozen years or a dozen more on top of a hundred years.’
‘I am not sure what you are asking of me, your highness?’ Camille said.
‘I am not sure myself. Not entirely. The idea has only just entered my mind as I looked around your pavilion. I saw, I think the solution to a question which I have long asked myself.’ There is a long pause. ‘Would you accept a commission from me, madam? There will be no penalty if my hopes proof foolish. They often have before.’
How could one say no to such an offer?
‘Yes, your Highness.’ Camille said. She moved to kiss the Princesses hand but her gesture was waved away.
‘There is no need. It is a hand like any other it has done good and it has done bad but I have never known it to do those who kiss it the least good or evil either way. You should know, if you work for me, that I am not actually a stamp.’
Though Camille thought, now that she saw the Princess up close, the stamp captured a remarkable likeness but not the warmth or brightness or those eyes. It was almost as if a fever burned through them.  
‘I will send a carriage for you tomorrow. You do not need to tell me your address. I know where every one of my subjects is.’ He fingers squeeze Camille’s fingers. The gesture is strangely human and undignified but it makes her easier to like. ‘I thank you.’
 The carriage rattles off up the bank; the plumed black horses that draw it straining up the incline with foggy snorts. The Guards come jogging after the carriage to push its wheels free before they freeze to the spot.
Camille turns and makes her own way back across the ice. Skaters were beginning to cut patterns and swirls amongst the tents. Tiny female Domovoi, less often seen than their men folk, wrapped in rose printed shawls and thick felted skirts have pulled a painted sledge (its pattern matching their shawls exactly) bearing great silver samovars into the midst of the crowd . They are serving tea in cups and saucers none of which match, all of which are patterned with roses. They are charitable to those who look too poor to pay the penny price of a cup but woe betides those who can pay but hope to get something for nothing. Small hands slap and claw at them, strange curses in a tongue most do not understand rain down on them till they are forced to pay, blood staining the coins in their hands. Soon the pockets of the Domovoi’s white starched aprons are bulging with coins. Not greedy creatures themselves they do not even taste the tea they serve but from time to time, when unobserved, they take swift, ecstatic sips from the milk urn. Their tea is marvellous, lightly spiced and sweet. Camille pauses for a cup. Sits on one of the benches hewn from logs and considers the Princesses proposition. She has not yet been told what she is expected to make. She knows very little about the Princess save what everyone knows from reading the Saturday illustrated papers; she is as good a ruler as they have ever had but then, as she has ruled for a hundred years or more there is no one who can recall a time before her. She is beautiful and sophisticated but then she should be should she not when her mother was the most beautiful of the fae and her great, great grandmother was a mermaid of such renown that there are still stories told about her. There are also myths told about the Princess, that she will vanish into thin air someday as her mother did before her and what will they do then with no clear heir to take over the country? There are myths that her brother does indeed lie in a deep sleep somewhere in the palace and will wake who knows when. Though, ideally he would wake when she vanishes and then they will all be saved.

Out of the corner of her eye as she stands she thinks she sees her brother and the young man who accompanied him gliding along on skates. Their arms are twined about each other’s waists and their heads rest upon each other’s shoulders. She smiles for them. How very like Jon it is that he should forget to tell her a little thing like his being in love.

Monday, 31 October 2016

The perfumed costume...

All Hallows eve is upon us.
Tread not at crossroads tonight but remember to leave out milk for the spirits (and the witches cats).  Scry your fortune in a looking glass but beware what the future may hold!
Remember too that the most important decision of Halloween is: what to wear.
I don’t mean costumes; although, feel free to indulge yourselves as much as you like in the revelry of masking and disguise.
Personally, I favour a costume of velvet and black lace for myself; Vampirella turned up to maximum, Morticia Adams and Angela Carter’s “The Lady of the House of Love” going all Miss Haversham in her wedding dress and sunglasses.
No, I digress, I mean perfumes. Those olfactory statements written in molecules that say so much about us, or about the character we’re acting out on any given day. Whatever your Halloween costumes is, it's just begging to be taken to new heights by the addition of the right perfumes. So, I thought I'd take a little look at a few of the options.
Today, my perfume poison of choice is an old favourite: Ambre Fétiche perfume by Annick Goutal. I’ve raved about this perfume often on Facebook but only because I love it so.
Ambre Fétiche is all the rich, sensual and dark scents of winter and antiquity. No one ever loved antiquity more than the immortal. In his notes for a stage version of Dracula reproduced in Christopher Frayling’s book, “Vampyres” Stoker suggests these creatures of the night can only be moved by artifacts which pre-date them whilst the gramophone and telephone leave them cold.
It's also an intensely seductive perfume with it's notes of incense, amber, benzoin and deep heart of leather and patchouli.  In pure perfume form it's a heavy veil of fragrance with (appropriately) impressive longevity.
If you want to amp up the intensity and the seduction then you could add a light spray of Demeter’s Musk over the top although I confess to finding their musk a little coy when it could be wicked. Then again, what could be more appropriate than than a spritz from a perfume house which shares it’s name with the very ship which bought Dracula to Whitby?
If you’re looking for a Vampiric perfume to finish off your costume then don’t forget too that The Clarimond Project (into whose archives I’ve only recently, and with great pleasure, begun to dip) has given us all sorts of olfactory evocations of that beautiful Vamps story.
As for that most famous of Transylvania Vampires, I have a feeling that the Count (especially Gary Oldman’s tormented, lovesick hero)  would probably wear Blood Concept O Cruel Incense with all it’s delicious connotations.
Of course Blood Concept might work for those hoping to emulate Mary Shelley’s Dr Frankenstein too although not if you’re taking inspiration from the Dr’s creation as I fancy Adam, with his refined taste in literature, would reach for a seriously refined and literary perfume. Perhaps De Profundis from Serge Lutens would appeal to Adam? If unsure, he could always split a bottle with Dorian Gray who I’m sure would lap it up.
But then, I can imagine Dorian that great lover of perfume experimenting with all manner of modern perfumes. Etat Libre d’Orange’s new release Attaquer la Soliel Marquise De Sade might have arrived on his dressing table as a gift from Lord Henry Wooton the one man in London who knows Dorian and his sins so well.  There may even be a few bottles of more innocent perfumes like Penhaligon’s Elizabethan Rose pushed to the back of that same dressing table, gifts from poor Basil Haywood whose tragedy was to see the best in Dorian. Do those bottles still prompt the odd tear to fall from painted eyes I wonder?
I'm afraid my attempts to scent Jekyll and Hyde have failed, they simply cannot, would not agree on a perfume or even a genre of perfume. But that's the danger of having two people share one body I suppose...
However, I can suggest one dark, intense perfume for every fiend and friend alike (especially those on a budget): Brocard's Queen of Spades Modern, it's licorice and Cherry and jet black juice are perfect and what a pretty bottle.
Well, I shall leave you now, for me and for many others, Halloween is but the prelude for something far more terrifying: NaNoWriMo. Yes, for only the second year I’ll be endeavouring to turn out the first draft of a novel in just 30 days…

Thursday, 20 October 2016

Capturing a mood...

Once again this week I am wrestling with the short story. No specific short story but rather the genre as a whole. I love reading short stories, don't get me wrong, they are utterly beautiful works of economy which should be more widely available (it's a tragedy how few magazines and newspapers outside of the literary sphere publish short stories these days and an equal tragedy that so many genre magazines which do have to reach out for crowdfunding).

No, my specific problem with short stories is with writing them. I want to, I love to but they seem to either stick firmly on the page and work or swell hopelessly towards a less than satisfactory conclusion before I stick them in the drawer (often metaphorically since so much writing takes place on computers these days) to return to when I am ready. Well, this week, I decided to pull out a few and rework them, clearing the desk before NaNoWriMo begins in November (yes, I do do NaNo but we'll come to that in a later post). I had ideas for endings and plans drawn up. All I had to do now was get myself into the right mood for rewriting, which meant getting myself into the crisp Autumnal mood which pervades so many of my stories, no matter what time of year I write them in. This seasonal repetition may have something to do with the fairy tale influence I spoke of a few weeks ago for in the land of fairy tale it is almost always Autumn or Winter, the leaves or the snow are always falling, the land is in the midst of a perpetual transformation.

Conjuring a mood for writing is not dissimilar to conjuring the mood of a character, after all, when one writes, one writes from within the world ones characters inhabit. The autumn leaves which crunch beneath their feet are leaves from your own memory, the hot spiced tea they drink you drank once; for those elements which one cannot experience first hand, a visit to the Great Exhibition or life in Stuart England one must plunge into research and imagination until you feel confident enough to imagine the scent of smoggy air, the exhilaration of seeing new inventions, the feel of velvet doublet and hose.

Tea is always a good place to start when getting into a warm writing mood, Assam, Chai, English Breakfast: whichever you pick you are bound to need a boundless supply beside you as you write (unless you favour coffee), scent is just as important: but I would say that, with my love of perfume. When I spoke of Gothic writing I said I could well imagine my character's wearing YSL Opium or L'Artisan's Fou d'Absinth because they fitted with their personalities, but the perfume of autumn may be even more subjective, heavy and rich, crisp and spicy, the scent holds the memories of the season or of the season as you've fictionalised it. So, I plucked one story from the pile and tried to imagine what that setting would smell like: a small European village at the end of the 19th Century. A village trying to carve out a place for itself as a desirable holiday destination with a twist.
The perfumes I came up with were: Etat Libre d'Orange's Like This, a perfume of Pumpkin, musk, and Spice inspired by the beautiful Tilda Swinton and designed to capture "a magic potion of home"  . It's a beautiful scent which one can easily imagine wafting through cottage windows, out of inns and from bonfires where sweet treats were roasted and toasted.  The orange spiciness of Chanel's Coco, the incense of Caron's Parfum Sacre and the woody warmth of Penhaligon's Hammam Bouquet added the intense and ancient aroma of the castle overlooking the village. All those centuries of cedar wood fires and ladies arriving for dinner parties in the latest fashionable blend must have sunk into the tapestries on the walls and lingers in the smooth wood floors. Even when abandoned the castle, I imagined, would have been busy accumulating scents, indolic jasmine, lavender from the gardens; all waiting to flood into the nostrils of anyone who opened the door and stepped inside.

A spray of each, a little tea, a moment to absorb the mood and...

The scented spell woven by the perfumes worked and I was soon typing away, weaving new scenes and sharpening others. At the end of all of this, the short stories I was working on are nearly completed and there are ideas for two or three more maturing in my notebooks. Colder winter short stories which will require their own perfumes.

Wednesday, 12 October 2016

Writing Wednesday... Immortal words (hopefully)...

October is upon us, the air has turned chill, the leaves are falling and Halloween beckons to us from months end. 
What better time then to whisper of the Gothic?
I mentioned once before that, although my most recent book was more in the genre of fairy tale it's predecessors were Gothic novels, so let me add a little more detail on that.
Three or so years ago when I was still studying for my degree in English Literature, and taking modules in Creative Writing, I happened to watch a film which will remain nameless in which saccharine creatures of the night emoted boldly. I'd  read Dorian Gray and Dracula by this stage and was beginning to immerse myself in the works of Gautier and his fellow flaneurs of the Parisian dusk. This may help to explain why I emerged from that viewing experience with a rueful shake of the head, certain that these were not my creatures of the night. In the morning I plucked one of my notebooks from the teetering to be written in pile (like a TBR pile but blank) and put pen to paper. I wrote the first four chapters in one day before being pulled away by the task of writing an essay, then of revising. For a few months the novel slept until the years exams were over and I could return myself to it's pages in earnest. 
The rest just flowed after that, as it turned out a large cast of flamboyant immortals living in my head who wanted to make their presence felt. 
Their home was the 19th century, their habits not dependent on the moon and their lust for life and love quite extravagant. Theirs was a Gothic existence complete with stone arches and peacock feathers.
The research was as pleasurable as the writing, books on the Exposition Universal of 1889, the art of the Baroque, the English Civil War, Oscar Wilde and Victorian fashion were greedily devoured. Museums were visited and notes were taken. At the risk of sounding pretentious (always a danger for me) I wanted to immerse myself as deeply as possible in as atmospheric a world as possible.
Spending time reading anything and everything Gothic was no hardship to me. Every book was a delight and the Gustave Dore prints pinned to my notice board for inspiration were (and still are) a pleasure to look at. 
Even my perfume choices took on a Gothic edge with plenty of heavy, musky and alluring scents taking up space on my dressing table; my scent of the day today is Yves Saint Laurent's delicious Opium. Heavy folds of sensual amber, myrrh and vanilla sharpened by  by mandarin orange. It's not a perfume easily overlooked, it announces itself with a seductive fanfare and keeps on radiating. It wants, above all, not to be forgotten. What could be more appropriate for immortals?

The characters I wrote would also admire the scandalous idea of a perfume inspired by the 19th Centuries most mythologized vice: opium itself. I suspect they would also have adored my current favourite: Fou d'Absinthe by L'Artisan Parfumer too, such a sharp tribute to their green tipple of choice (they have a reverse colour wheel thing going on in their drinks cabinets). 
  Unlike other immortals I'm afraid my creations could never make it in the 21st Century, the harsh brightness of electric light has none of the glamour of gas and candle, the car can never be a sensitive or easy to talk to as the horse. They would admire the great steps forward humanity has made, yes. By necessity they long ago abandoned the default prejudices of their own eras and are sublimely glad to see that such shadows are fading, slowly, but fading. However, the 1980's with their plastic fantastic show glamour were their Waterloo. Not for them white powder with red braces; no, they would far rather be sipping Absinthe with Wilde and since that is not an option they have faded back into the shadows. You might see them occasionally, on a winters evening, wrapped in velvet as they scurry from a museum or stroll along the banks of the Seine. The hat of a hipster might make them shake their heads and smile because they remember when such things were new and bold. In many ways my creature are not so different from myself. But that's the nature of the Gothic, it should possess our dreams and our inner selves. 
The book I began three years ago is now the first of a series and currently out looking for an agent to represent them whilst i keep writing and, of course, I'm still reading gothically. 

Wednesday, 5 October 2016

Writing Wednesday... The land of Fairy Tale

I have always been fascinated by Fairy Tales. Something about them sings to the blood. That might be a strange way to describe it but Fairy Tales deal in the elements of existence, blood, water, snow, woods and shadows. They make our dreams flesh and our fears manifest. When I think of fairy tales, I think of a low hanging apple, bright red and crisp but perhaps when one bites into the flesh one will find a pale little worm writhing away from your sharp toothed kiss.
Strange truth, it has been many years since I last found a worm in an apple. Sometimes I find the thin paths they make. Perhaps the worms have begun to tell fairy tales about people and know to run away in fright.
Like many children of the 20th Century my first introduction to fairy tales was through the bright, wide eyed fantasies of Disney. Like many children of the 1990’s my first princess was Belle, heroine of “Beauty and the Beast”. How I wanted to be her!
Strangely, if I try to recall Belle now, almost twenty years after our first encounter I can call to mind only the rose and the bell jar of the film. A few notes of songs linger but it’s the rose I can see clearly. Year by year, the image becomes a little more steampunk, darker and more Victorian.
Interesting, since my relationship with fairy tales did not end with those flickering cinematic images.
I moved on from Disney to my Mothers collection of Arthur Rackham’s Grimm and Angela Barrett’s Snow White, to a world where Queen’s expressions shift imperceptibly like sweet glaciers as they lean out from their windows and marvel at the contrast of a drop of blood on the snow.
From Rackham and Barrett I moved on to Angela Carter and the reinvention of fairy tales, tracked down editions of Grimm’s fairy tales which included those tales which they included in their notebooks and not in their finished editions for the fear of upsetting the children.
Now, I have moved on to Marina Warner and her marvellous analysis of Fairy Tales: “From The Beast to The Blond”. Since this beautiful tome arrived in the post, my second hand edition from 1994 even came with the delightful bonus of newspaper reviews clipped out and tucked in by it’s first owner, I have been fixed to the page absorbing detail after detail.
 From Anne of Austria and Louis XIV’s adulation of St. Anne and childlike spontaneous spirituality influencing the emergence of Fairy Tale culture in 17th Century France (not to mention womens writing and the Frond) to the symbolism of hair in fairy tale, every page one turns overflows with gems a little like a brush through enchanted hair.
The path into the land of fairy is a strange one, as much in the shadows of the woods as in the clearings and who knows where it will finally lead you.
In my case, it has led me back to my own writing. Whilst my first books were very much the product of Victorian Gothic, Stoker and Wilde ran in their blood, my most recent novel and the ideas in my notebooks have been rather more fairy tale than hansom cab in the fog (of course, some have been a little bit of both).
When I write I often begin with an image I know has drifted down from the vast library of fairy tale knowledge. I begin writing with falling snow, a crisp apple, a fat red rose, a monstrous key or a glass coffin dancing in my head. I have developed a slight obsession with a version of “Beauty and the Beast” recorded by the Grimm's called “The Winter Rose” and find it’s themes dropping like snowflakes into my paragraphs. Perhaps that is only natural, after all we now know that audiences have been delighted by that particular story for over 5,000 years just as Cinderella and her lost slipper have struck a note with thousands of generations and across continents. Something old stirs in these tales, maybe we don’t yet know how old? But I’ve played with that idea before, asked if stories so strange might have roots of truth
Once you begin to pursue fairy tales you risk toppling over and falling headlong, like Alice, down a rabbit hole of imagery and allegory, see I am doing it now. I don’t expect to ever be an Angela Carter, to her alone was left some rare knowledge of the human heart. But I cannot help but follow the thread of fairy tales and ask my own questions: what would have happened if Cinderella saved herself, if Sleeping Beauty were a man, if Little Red Riding Hood had not gone into the woods?
Such exploration can take strange paths but they can pay off well, Terry Gilliam’s Brothers Grimm is far from a conventional retelling of fairy tales or of the lives of the brothers themselves but I adore it’s playful inventions and the way it conjures old imagery into fabulous new forms. Authors as disparate as Tanith Lee, Neil Gaiman and Helen Oyeyemi have all done remarkable things with fairy tale building blocks Nothing is set in stone, the fairy tales are not exhausted as a source of inspiration, please do pick them up and have fun, from ancient lips to our modern ears they are still singing.